Recently, I posted 5 reasons why Brady will be an only child, so you might want to read that before you continue reading- I don't want to repeat myself.
I don't know if it's guilt that I'm feeling or what to call it, but every time I see a baby or someone with multiple kids, it makes me feel sad that we aren't going to have more. My ovaries aren't hurting and even if we did have more we weren't planning on trying until June, but it's just an overwhelming feeling that comes over me. A lot of my friends are talking about getting pregnant or when they are going to start trying again and some of our friends have even made me feel bad for not planning on having more, even after telling them all of our reasons. I know it's our choice and no one else's, but it really has me thinking.
I don't know what this feeling is or when it will pass and if I will act on it, but I'm sick of getting mad or sad or weird feelings when I see people with their newborns or multiple children. Even yesterday when I went to the grocery store and saw people shopping with their kids, I felt bad that I didn't have Brady with me. Why the heck was I jealous of someone shopping with their kid? I love shopping without him haha!
I'm taking advantage of working from home as long as I can (not my choice) and having Brady by my side. So for now, one child, two dogs and as much time as possible pretending Brady won't grow up!